The Lyrics:
I’m so confused
I know I heard you loud and clear
So, I followed through
Somehow I ended up here
I don’t wanna think
I may never understand
That my broken heart is a part of your plan
When I try to pray
All I got is hurt and these four words
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
I know you’re good
But this don’t feel good right now
And I know you think
Of things I could never think about
It’s hard to count it all joy
Distracted by the noise
Just trying to make sense
Of all your promises
Sometimes I gotta stop
Remember that you’re God
And I am not
So
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Like a child on my knees all that comes to me is
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will
I know you see me
I know you hear me, Lord
Your plans are for me
Goodness you have in store
I know you hear me
I know you see me, Lord
Your plans are for me
Goodness you have in store
So
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Like a child on my knees
All that comes to me is
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
I know you see me
I know you hear me, Lord.
Today I received the email that every worker has been dreading to receive. My biggest client is in a tight situation and have to pause/stop contracts for six to twelve months. This felt like a breakup letter from my client. I was heartbroken. I knew this was coming but I never thought it would come too soon. Being a Project Manager for this company for a good one year helped me learn a lot of things especially in Marketing. I love my co workers and I love what I do. I made awesome friendships. It was something I could see myself doing for years! I made plans. Financial plans, travel plans and life plans.
At first it didn’t sink it. I headed out for breakfast and came back to my room. I woke up late today so I had to rush downstairs and catch breakfast time before the restaurant close. When I came to my room, I opened Spotify to play music and “Thy Will” was in the playlist. I burst out crying. Balling. Seriously. Million questions suffocated my mind. Why? How? What will I do now? I put this song on a replay and the message for me was loud and clear. His will be done. As a faithful person, this is a good reminder that everything does not go our way and it is not the end of the world. It is very hard to say, thy will be done.
As someone who loves to work and by work I mean work really hard, losing a contract is like losing a part of you. People who see me on social media thinks that I got it easy. That I get everything easily. No. I work hard for it. Although there are things that come to me easily, not everything does. When I traveled to Europe in 2014, I had the hardest 6 months in my life beforehand. I worked 12-14 hours each day. I write 4-6 articles and do house work on top of that. Yes. I make things happen. It was exhausting but I kept my eyes on the goal, I will experience my first snow and winter. And I reached that goal.
I’ve come a long way since then. I have been landing contracts after contracts and have traveled a lot every year. But when this big project came, everything changed. It was what I wanted, it allowed me to travel and work without spending hours and hours working each day. 2016 was the best year yet. It was a blessing that I enjoyed every day. I was getting used to this lifestyle and thinking that I am going to lose this made me scared. But I remembered, His plans will always be greater than mine.
I still have a lot of travels left, my ticket and room in Phuket are confirmed, my Australian visa is ready and I trust that He will provide for all of it. I couldn’t do this on my own. Whatever happens, I will keep my joy. 🙂 When I get distracted, I will come back and say “Thy will be done“.
If you are reading this, I hope and pray that you can say “thy will be done” and accept His plan for your life. I don’t know what you are going through but know that nothing is greater than Him. And he hears us. Even if at times He is silent.
Keep your eyes focused on Him and not your circumstances. Your heart may be broken now like mine, but one day we will wake up and realize that we need to get our hearts broken in order for us to be whole.
Let us not exhaust our energies to make things happen our way. We will be disappointed. We might think we know what’s right for us but if it is not according to His will, we’re setting ourselves up for failure.
I have been disappointed and failed a lot before. But the difference now is that I don’t dwell on the bad and sad things anymore. Life is too short to be sad. I will just try to focus on the great things in my life. And I am excited for what’s in store for me in the future! I should really continue the business that I started last year! 🙂 Thy will be done.
I have started this blog to bring me closer to my dream of being a travel writer and see the world. Now I have more time to share my travels and write articles! 🙂
P.S. Thank you Hillary for sharing your “letter to God” song, it has inspired me at this time of difficulty.
-RJ Lyn
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hi Ging, makahilak man sab ko sa imong sulat oy! Yes it is true in all circumstances in our lives good or bad ” Thy will be done”…
Love u and miss Ging see you soon. Ate Berns
Thanks for reading my article ate bern 🙂 love you and miss you too!! see you very soon!! 🙂
Ahhhh, loved this! I definitely can relate and know how you feel!
Thanks girl! 🙂 It’s nice to hear someone gets me 🙂
His will be done! His dreams for us is greater than our dreams for ourselves. I am very proud of you Dai.